I am noticing something about myself at work lately. I am losing my edge, that quality that a lot of newer or younger programmers have to know *all* of the little intricacies and specifications of new technologies. I am becoming more of a generalist, which has its good aspects, but I find myself less able to immediately grok something without having to read a whole lot of background info, first. Maybe I am just not as thirsty for it as I once was. The late nights over buckets of coffee, reading, absorbing, and writing code — those don’t happen any more. Maybe that thirst is being quenched by other things, not related to my job. I don’t know. Or maybe, this is merely a matter of stimulation at work, and that isn’t really occurring as much as it used to. Frankly, it is a bit frightening.

Maybe I need a change. Of scenery, or job, or goals, or some combination thereof. Maybe I am too jaded for this now. Maybe, I need to do something that I have a larger vested interest in, something to make me want to learn again. That’s a whole lot of maybe.

A track for this post? Okay. The Greymen, by Lake of Tears. The link is to a live version, the quality is not the greatest, from a show called SamFest. I think it was held in Roumania.

Such a dark cold way
And it enters through your breathing everyday
What a dark old way to stay the same
As it enters through your breathing,

Close your eyes and feel them turn it grey